A month without ex and I’m actually proud of myself!
I haven’t had, nor craved, contact for 32 days.
And this is only the beginning. I won’t need it ever again…
During that past month I’ve occasionally talked with a college-buddy who was frank about how he felt towards my reaction(s) to the breakup.
Some of his arguments seemed legit and true, others I found ill-founded because of our different opinions on life & love, and some were just plane insulting.
But about one thing he was absolutely right: We are/I am still too young to be this sad.
A few days ago I even saw part of my ex’s family in town. It didn’t do anything to me.
I’m happy it finally is completely “over”. I don’t even want to understand it anymore.
I’m satisfied with the idea that in the end I wanted you more. And now I don’t even need you (or your poison) anymore…
A few weeks ago I even deleted mystery-dancer from facebook.
I was so nice to send a happy birthday-text, but all I got back was some lame smiley and an other month of being ignored.
I wouldn’t be surprised if nobody ever noticed I was gone. Only proof that I was just 1 of the 1524 “friends” and a pastime.
A really unfortunate development… but if I’m completely honest I was more attracted to and interested in the physical then anything else.
And so this blog fulfilled its destiny.
I’m not closing it down. It’s a part of my life I’ll be looking back on every once in a while.
Maybe I’ll even start adding posts again when I’m getting emotionally unstable once more.
I won’t stop blogging though!
I’ve started another blog where you’ll get to see the “whole” me. I’ll be filling it with thoughts, questions, debates, etc. I have in my head.
I’ll try to make something fun and/or interesting out of it for every possible reader.
When you feel like it, look me up at http://riddlesofthesphinx.wordpress.com/
Take care everybody, I hope the see/hear/read you all back someday.
An overwhelming THANK YOU to everybody who took the effort to visit or comment on this blog these past months!
If I could, I’d hug each and every one of you.
So I bid you all farewell…
But I really can’t stay…
My happy days are here again!